The last couple of months have been pretty trying for me mentally and spiritually... A lot of it has to do with my job, and also the fact that I suffer from Seasonal Affected Disorder wherein I find myself with anxiety and depression due to a lack of exposure to enough sunlight during the winter. I've tried anti-depressants before and they've always just made it worse... So, I've just dealt with it... hung in there from November to February... did my best to stay sane. Fortunately, this year it didn't last as long as most years because my loving husband got me a light therapy lamp. It really has made a HUGE difference. Kinda pricey, but SO worth it. Anyway, got a little side tracked there... So yeah, the last couple of months have been a little rough, and just as I had overcome and triumphed over all the battles that had come my way the last few months... BAM! This last week I was called to be Primary President... Say what?!
I know, right? I'm too young! I have no idea what I'm doing. I have a seriously short attention span- I can barely sit through church as it is. I'm forgetful. I'm unorganized in thoughts and actions... etc. Heck, I'm a primary kid myself. And yet, they want me to be in charge. HA! My initial thought was "they're crazy, they're crazy, they're crazy" and I've repeated it to my poor husband a million times since I received the call... I was in complete shock. I think maybe the shock has worn off now, but to say I'm overwhelmed is a huge understatement.
On the flip-side, I love primary and I love those kids. And I've already had some pretty neat experiences especially while I was choosing my counselors. So, I guess I have to say... I know that God knows what he's doing... even if it seems absolutely crazy sometimes.
